Back during my May stint of #NaBloPoMo, I posted that I needed to get back to using my Continuous Glucose Monitor in order to get better control of my blood sugar and diabetes. It took me longer than it should have, but I finally started again a week ago.
I like data. I like looking for the patterns and trying to figure out where I can make changes. That's not always easy, because diabetes is not a very predictable disease. But small choices can make a big impact, so it's worth looking into what I can do. It's hard not to get obsessed with all the data, too, since it's right there hanging off my belt. And it's hard not to get upset when the results aren't good, even when I know what's wrong and how I can fix it. The CGM does hold me more accountable, though, and that's what I'm trying to do here, and I'm working on being kind to myself when I miss the mark.
At some point, I need to consider if I want to start using the insulin pump portion as well. I don't qualify for the newer, better version of the pump until next fall (thanks, insurance), so it's tempting to put it off until then. I'm frankly scared of how I'll feel when I'm tethered to the pump by its plastic tubing ALL THE TIME. As it is, the CGM frustrates me with its need to be on my body essentially all the time, losing the signal if I shower too long or accidentally leave it in another room. But everyone tells me it's life-changing, and that even if I hate it, I can always go back to my pen injections. It's a lot to think about.
That's the problem with this disease: it is SO much to think about. It's thinking all the damn time. And I'm busy. I don't want my life to focus so much on this disease, but I have to devote some of my life to it. The consequences of neglecting it are very real. So I'm back on the CGM. I'm trying to do the work.
Wish me luck.