Tuesday, September 11, 2012

No Day But Today (9/11)

I didn't sleep well last night, and when my alarm went off at 5:15 today, I was surprised to wake up with RENT's "No Day But Today" screaming in my head. Specifically, the gorgeous new Idina Menzel version. I got in the car to go to Zumba and hooked up my iPod. I sang my heart out. A couple hours later, driving Max to the JCC, I made him listen to it as I sang along again. When we hit the last turn, where the sun is always particularly bright, there were tears streaming down my face.

Another year, another 9/11. It seems I have a hard time not writing on this day. I have written where I was on 9/11, and last year I wrote on the tenth anniversary. I still can't believe we're expected to work, to go to school, to just go on with this day as usual. I wasn't there, I have no special attachments, I was just one of the millions watching all over the world as the tragedy unfolded. But I can't help marking today.

It's a Tuesday morning again, another fantastically bright, crisp fall day. So many images are seared into my memory, and I think of them often, not just on anniversaries. The sun against that perfect blue sky.

I don't totally believe that there is no day but today. Today, there is Hebrew school and early school release, there are dirty dishes and work. Today is not a day where "my only goal is just to be." But I hope maybe you'll join in this song with me, just for a couple of minutes, and remember.

1 comment:

  1. I can't believe it's been 13 years. I can still remember the early morning call from my family after the first plane hit (I in California) thinking why are they calling us sooooo early! It was hard to be so far away during that day and the days that followed ... each and every year I am affected too and I think I always will be always affected, I think of those lost and how our lives are forever cahnged!